The risk of being vulnerable in friendships 7


Vulnerability is the birthplace of everything we are hungry for.

Brene Brown

If you searched my Facebook page right now, you would see that I have a lot of people that I call my friends. If you counted the amount of family I have in my local surrounds you would probably smile and say “check out her village”.

However, I have never felt lonelier than in the season I am currently in. The cause of my loneliness can be described in three simple words; Absent Friends and Family.

Everyone who I call friend or family is busy in this season of their lives. They are absent. Off doing their life’s work, living overseas, volunteering and making a difference. They are giving everything they can to their career. They are revelling in their retirement.

I am learning for my season, with small children and family life, that I also need to be honest in the season I find myself in also. It is a lonely season. It is a “Ground Hog Day” season. It is a scrape the playdough off the floor and keep emptying that washing basket season.

I have been processing and pondering of late, how I shift this conundrum in my own life. In the past, I would have called more of my friends, I would have travelled every day to the city to hang out with people who were such important parts of my previous life. I would text, try harder and give more.

I have realised that in this season I am in friendship ground zero again and no one has done any thing wrong. It is just time for me to be vulnerable again and take another risk in friendship.

You see as a Mum of small children, I am constantly juggling everyone else’s needs over my own. Last week I heard a Mum say “I have just had to accept that Day Care is a part of my village and I will no longer be ashamed of it” I have come to the realisation that I need friends locally, who form my village. People who want to sit and talk. Those who drop by after the school run. People who are interested in the season I am currently in and who are not expecting anything more from me.

How often do we shame each other into the shoulds of needs and expectations of friendships?

How often do we hold onto past relationship seasons and think they will stay that way forever?

Maybe the time has come for you to admit that you have a ground zero day in your friendships and it is time to start again? It doesn’t mean your friendships from the past are no longer needed or valued. They have just changed, we are all invested in our new seasons and spending our days disappointed with unmet expectations doesn’t help anyone.

I love what Brene Brown says about relationships;

“We cultivate love when we allow our most vulnerable and powerful selves to be deeply seen and known, and we honour the spiritual connection that grows from offering with trust, respect, kindness and affection. Love is not something we give or get; it is something we nurture and grow. A connection that can only be cultivated between two people when it exists within each one of them. We can only love others as much as we love ourselves.”

The greatest risk we can take in life is to be completely honest with ourselves and change the expectations that we have of others to meet our needs. There are seasons where our friendship calendar is overflowing and others where it is hauntingly empty. The only person who can change that, however, is you.

We need to find the courage to keep being honest and create the life that sustains our needs and future.

Step into the arena once again and begin.

What are you nurturing in your relational world?

Are you living in a past season and keep feeling disappointed when your expectations are not met?

These are the deep musings going through my heart and mind of late. It is time for me to admit that I need to be vulnerable in friendship again and it is time for me to take on the responsibility of creating my own village.

What are your vulnerabilities in friendship?

These are my risks in this season. To have the courage to start again. And the wisdom to remind myself that friendships that are not a part of my everyday in this season are just as valuable and purposed.


About Amanda

Amanda Viviers has published ten books and is a presenter on radio across New Zealand and Australia. She is also the co-founder of Kinwomen; a network created to inspire women to start conversations that matter. Head of Narrative for Compassion Australia, she is driven by a passion for social justice, she loves supporting projects for women in developing countries. Teaching women to live creative lives, beyond the circumstances, is something she pursues daily. Wife of Charl and Mum of Maximus and Liberty, she lives a creative life, longing to see people live inspired. Pinterest/ Twitter/ @Mandaviviers Instagram: @amandaviviers Facebook: @amandaviviersperth

7 thoughts on “The risk of being vulnerable in friendships

  • Linett Shave

    My season with small children and family life was over 4 decades ago. The friends I made were other Mums just like me, met at playgroup, pre-school and school. Soccer Mums and babysitters. Some are still friends ( on facebook ), We moved to the city, a new season, new friends, returned to the workforce, new friends ( and yes some are on facebook ). Now I am retired and again a season of loneliness ( and aloneness) I was not sure I could do it all again. I lived in a past season for sometime. Then as you say I stepped into the arena and did it all again. I connected with several groups, met new people and began to get to know them and allow them to know me. It is scary. Past relationship seasons may not stay with you forever, they are a season, and they leave you with some wonderful memories. Thank you Amanda for sharing these thoughts. Whatever season we need connection. Many wonderful people will cross our paths, may stay awhile, and our lives are greatly enriched , as I also hope I have enriched theirs. Keep putting yourself out there.

    • Amanda Post author

      I love this Linnett, thank you so much. I talked to my neighbour today who is in her 90’s and she said to me quietly/ I feel so alone. Seasons change so quickly, we need to keep on discovering and learning about ourselves.


  • Yvette

    Oh how I can relate! I’ve lost so many in the last few years. It started 5 years ago when my sister moved to Mozambique and it’s been a slow leak ever since. I thought I’d grown used to it but when my sister Liz moved to Thailand earlier this year, I was a mess.

    Ground Zero is a good way to describe it. It’s painful hey. 🙁

    Starting again with new friendships is hard work. But God sees us and knows what we need. And He is our faithful provider.


    • Amanda Post author

      yes he is. The funny thing is I have so many friends, they are all so far away. I have realised I need to make friends with my neighbours, with my school mums and stop pretending my life is different to what it is. Ha ha/ reality.

  • Dawn

    I love this Amanda It explains what many go through so well. I especially like the part were you say without ‘expecting anything from me’.

    I am out of the small children season now but the habits i have were possibly created in that season. I would have to add ‘not good habits’

    I am on a bit of a journey now regarding this topic, so i loved your article. Thanks for sharing your heart.

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