Cultivating transformation 1

Transformation is not five minutes from now; it’s a present activity. In this moment you can make a different choice, and it’s these small choices and successes that build up over time to help cultivate a healthy self-image and self-esteem.

Jillian Michaels

Transformation is a verb, it is a doing word. It is something that each one of us is doing right now. Yes, even now as you read these words, you are choosing to lean in and you are quietly hoping that transformation will come to you in some way through these words and the heart behind these words. And friend, as I sit here and type them; I am hoping so too.

Transformation is a process and every part of the process is purposed. I want to encourage you to make a choice to receive these words as an invitation from heaven to let go and to go deeper in your own transformation journey. It will be so worth it.

Take a moment to pause and think back to the last time that you needed breakthrough and you made a choice to let go and trust the process. When you (eventually) came forth, after some process (and possibly some pain), weren’t you relieved? And, didn’t you rejoice?

Take this as a permission slip from above to be kind to yourself as you slowly but surely transform. We are all a work in progress and we need to show ourselves the grace required to linger longer with the transformation process. We are not in a hurry. He is not in a hurry.

Almost 12 months ago I had a minor car accident that has left me with major chronic pain. It has changed everything for me. Some good, some bad and some, very challenging. Believe me, there have been days that I have not cultivated a healthy relationship with process and “slowly but surely” were my least favourite words!

But, one day, a few months ago I came to the profound realisation, (that I am sure I had known before, but had forgotten), every choice has a consequence. And my choice to wallow and have a bad attitude towards myself, my pain or my God were not doing me any favours. And the consequences were sadness and fear.

So, I decided to let go of my need to know “why” my loving God wasn’t doing things my way (I am sure that I am not the only one who has ever wondered that, right?). And I decided to cultivate a healthy response to my season of transformation. I surrendered all. Yes friends, all … and, guess what my consequence was?

Peace, divine peace.

A peace that I could never put into words, ever. A deep knowing that I was held and secure and that I had permission to take my time as I healed my way to wholeness.

I felt free.
I felt relief.

I am someone who knows what it is like to be a world-changing butterfly with outspread wings. Yet, I am in a cocoon season, where I have to choose to re-surrender day after day after day. One day, at the right time, I will spread my wings again, but I will be different this time; deeper, freer, kinder to myself, more at peace.

I have embraced the journey. I am trusting the process. I am learning a lot about holistic ways to nurture my 45-year-old self, as I heal not just from whiplash, but from a lifetime of story and trauma and heartbreak; and for that I am deeply grateful.

I am finding beauty in the healing.
One breath, one choice, one day at a time.

I am cultivating goodness and goodness is chasing me down.
Won’t you join me as we surrender to the process of transformation and heal our way to wholeness?