My Heart is Confident 2

When your heart speaks, take good notes. 

Judith Campbell

Have you ever been stuck in the middle of decision-making mode? Does your heart ever tell you one thing, while your mind tells you another?

Part of the struggle is that we get to a point in life where the old ways aren’t working, where we question what we’ve been doing and we lose our confidence.

Our intuition, or heart, tries to speak to us, but it is often squashed by the sensible-sounding voice of our logical mind. 

I’m working through a fairly big decision in my writing life at the moment. I’ve gone down a track and feel it’s right, but when things don’t work out the way I expect, I begin to doubt myself and get drawn back to the default of playing it safe. 

Playing it safe looks like defaulting to what I’ve always done. Repeating what worked for me before. Settling for the comfort of known paths. 

While I may look calm and considered on the outside, the wrestle between heart and mind can be a battlefield. On the inside, I’m arguing, ‘Head or heart? Heart or head?’ in ever-dizzying circles.

As I struggle in my head and my heart, I’m learning to be brave. Like Brené Brown says, ‘I’m still not good at surrendering or “living in the question,” but I am getting better. I guess you could say I’ve graduated to “writhing in the question”’.

I’m learning that my intuition, or heart-wide-open thinking, is developing the trust muscle that allows me to listen to my heart while bringing my brain along for the ride. 

At the end of the day, head and heart can’t be separated. Some days, the head wins out. Some days, the heart. But, every day is an interplay between the two. 

In the process, I’m developing heart-centred confidence and this makes me think of faith. Faith in God. Faith in myself. Faith in my intuition. Faith in my mind. 

My heart is confident in you, O God; my heart is confident. Psalm 57:7 New Living Translation (NLT)

I know what I want. 

I know what I need to do. 

Finally, I can say these words and mean it, ‘My heart speaks. My heart is confident’.