I want to get better at looking up. Looking for help. Waiting for advice and guidance and peace. Because my default is to try and sort life out. Every part of it.
I think it’s a human aversion to living in the in-between – in the shadows – and a desire to avoid suffering.
I remember significant health concerns when pregnant with one of my sons. Tests needed to be completed over an extended time period and we were told it would take weeks for the results to be returned. But, during that time, I wanted answers. I wanted affirmation. I want assurance.
And right up to the end, none were forthcoming and all I could do was look up.
I was required to either make friends with the waiting or endure a punishment that would leave me wretched.
And through this experience – and many more – I continue to learn and understand the importance of practicing my conviction that faith and hope are often cultivated in the in-between. When we agree to look up and wait.
Thank you Kelly.
So needed to read this today.
Hoping, praying and waiting to see my Grandaughter be willing to receive treatment and help necessary to recover from anorexia. Our God is good and His ways and timing are perfect. But that space in the middle where we can’t see the outcome is a very hard valley to walk through.
Thank you and God bless you all at Kin Women for sharing your insights with us.
Ann