I have found that the opposite of faith is not doubt, but I have found it to be control.Amanda Viviers, Seek: a devotional guide to surrender
Each year as I sit with the Easter journey, I am always struck by the words “It is finished.” Even Jesus, who is the Son of God needed to release control and surrender to this process.
Surrender seems like a weakness. You know, when we give up, after holding on and seeking validation from a role, position or place that gave us a sense of worth. He was on earth to bring radical change with intense purpose but He needed to seek surrender.
I remember the time when I became a Mother for the first time. Surrendering to that season was a work in progress over many years and the relentlessly broken nights of sleep nearly took me out. I learnt to drop everything to meet the needs of my newborn, and the reinvention of my life seemed impossible.
Then suddenly a day came when they didn’t need me as much anymore. I once again needed to let go, of the person I had become, whom my newborn babies need. As I look back on that period, I smile with faint remembrance of the pain that felt like it would never shift.
Just like the tides change and seasons in nature teach us patience, winter turned to spring, and now both my children are in full-time school. These seasons of transition are never smooth. We feel like the heaviness will never lift again. Thinking we will be stuck in a washing machine of self-doubt and confusion.
Whether you are surrendering to the release of a work role, a change in partnership or self-awareness, finding ways to surrender makes the process so much easier.
I have found my life is in a state of always becoming. Failure arrives at my door and sometimes success is packed within its suitcase. Insight sits on the same seat as regret.
(This is an excerpt out of Amanda’s latest devotional Seek: a devotional guide to Lent, download your copy today.)