Three years ago when I began my novice motherhood journey, I could have never predicted how different my days would actually look in reality.
The greatest wrestle of this season has been defining who I am outside of what I do and it has been the most defining of journeys.
Although there are days when I struggle with who I am and others when I feel so clear, the struggle has been the biggest part of the story.
“Your life is a sacred journey. And it is about change, growth, discovery, movement, transformation, continuously expanding your vision of what is possible, stretching your soul, learning to see clearly and deeply, listening to your intuition, taking courageous challenges at every step along the way. You are on the path… exactly where you are meant to be right now… And from here, you can only go forward, shaping your life story into a magnificent tale of triumph, of healing of courage, of beauty, of wisdom, of power, of dignity, and of love.”
Soul Health and Wholeness is a journey
Soul Health is a big theme of my life, as a writer, I am often searching for ways to process and realign my sense of purpose and passion. The more I pursue peace, the more I am realising that my internal world looks nothing like I think it should. It is a moving balance, it is a strength in my core, it is the realisation that I am not in control and as vulnerable as that feels, the stability that brings to my heart and mind is life changing.
I found a proverb that said this recently; (Proverb 24: 10)
If you fail under pressure your strength is too small
The journey of novice motherhood has been teaching me about balance. Not in a zen like perfection, a centredness that comes from allowing peace to rule my heart even when I feel far from peaceful.
I have had a scripture on repeat lately that has created a balance that doesn’t make sense. A peace when my two children are screaming, that becomes a reminder that I don’t have to be in control.
6-7 Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the centre of your life.
A different version says it this way:
A peace that surpasses understanding that guards our hearts and minds.
Wholeness comes when we find our place in the bigger picture of our lives. It is funny, that literally doesn’t make sense, but spiritually it totally does.
One of the greatest exercises for our soul is finding opportunities to strengthen our health, through trust and peace.
The more we worry, the more unstable we feel.
The more we try to control situations, the more out of control they become.
Finding internal peace
I am learning that an internal peace, that trusts the greater plan outside of the immediate concern, is the greatest perspective shift that I can have as a mother.
It settles me down.
A sense of wholeness overwhelms.
And life begins to feel a whole lot more wonderful.
How about you?
What makes you feel centred?
Do you have a scripture that helps you in time of need?
When was the last time you leaned on it?
This is the journey towards soul health my friend, a robust, strengthening of our internal resilience.
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